Friday, March 6, 2009

Excited, Anxious, Nervous, Stressed (and Updates)

I found out last week I got into nursing school! I sent in my application to the Banner Nurse Fellows program at the end of January, thinking I would maybe get a call for the July start date, but also knowing there were still a few openings for the March start date after reading posts online. Well, they called me last Wednesday around 7pm to see if I was available for the March start date and if I could come in for an interview Thursday. Of course I said yes! I interviewed Thursday and they called Friday to let me know I was chosen for the last spot at Gateway Community College! I am so excited, anxious and nervous! I have been taking pre-req's for the last year and a half, and have been on the waitlist for almost a year! I can't believe I'm finally starting nursing school in TWO weeks! I hope I can make it through and do well, have enough time to study, not fail any classes, and pass the test to get certified at the end! I hope this is the right decision for me and our family. I've been home with the kids for so long, it will be hard to not be there all day everyday. I'll be in class/clinicals 4 days a week, and we're working on finding childcare I can live with for those times. BJ's parents are staying through the end of April, so I just have to find childcare from May until they can come back. I am sad because Alyssa starts kindergarten in July and she and I will both "graduate" next June-that means I will miss her whole year of kindergarten-not being able to volunteer much if ever, not being able to help her with her homework as much. I just hope I won't have to miss her first day of school! Maybe my teachers will be sympathetic and let me miss a day. Childcare and missing things are the stressful part. At least I will be able to spend a whole year with Cole after I graduate before he goes to school. I'm going to try get my life and home organized and to spend lots of time with BJ and the kids these two weeks before school starts-thankfully Brooke is on spring break and I will have all three home with me. What a great way to spend my last two weeks of freedom!

Other news on the homefront-Alyssa has another (or the same one that didn't get better) urinary tract infection, so she is on more antibiotics and has an appointment in two weeks with the urologist. Hopefully they find nothing wrong and it's just a five-year-old-doesn't-know-how-to-wipe-correctly thing. For some reason, Alyssa has shortened Mommy and Daddy to Mom and Dad when she talks to us sometimes. What's up with that? She's not old enough to do that yet! She has been doing a little better at keeping panties dry during the day , and some at night. I'm hoping for very few accidents when she goes to school in July! She is sweet as always, with lots of loving kisses and hugs.

More toilet news-Cole used the potty a bunch yesterday and only had one accident-he actually even came to tell me twice that he had to go! Could he be potty trained by his third birthday-or better yet by the time I go to school? Let's not jinx myself! I also have to stop calling underwear "panties"-I guess "undies" would be a better word for a boy?! This is unchartered territory for me after two girls-potty training a boy? Sit or stand? Do they do a Potty dance or no? Daddy or Mommy? Guess I'm overthinking it. Wish us luck!

Cole is also talking a lot more and I can understand most of what he says. He likes "choo-choo's" almost more than cars now. He said the word "truck" yesterday, instead of calling everything a car. He know how to tell us what he wants by saying "I want _______" -and he says it A LOT, for everything! I want more, I want in there, I want watch _____, etc. This has replaced the previous favorite phrase "Where did ______ go?" But he still says that too. And, what is up with boys and hitting? He hits everyone all the time for NO (or any) reason-it could be because he's happy to see you, to get your attention, to show he is upset, to show he is happy. My arm/leg starts to hurt by the end of the day. He also loves to say "Watch" when he wants us to watch him do something. But he does do something sweet to get my attention-he gets up to my face and puts his hand on my cheek and PUSHES my face in the direction he wants me to look-no matter what I am doing or who I am talking to at the time. SO sweet. (do you feel the sarcasm-sweet was ONE time, not ALL the time). Sweet though are the kisses I get everyday and when he comes running up to me screaming "Mommy!" and hugging me when I come home. Those ARE sweet! Then there is evil Cole who gets the "Diesel controller" as well call it, stands at the sliding glass door, and pushes the button to watch the dog jump outside. Diesel yelps and Cole just laughs and laughs-then I come running and take it away, and he pouts/cries like I took away his favorite toy. How dare I take it away and save Diesel from torture?!

Brooke is pretty much the same-sweet, helpful, sassy, and consistent Brooke. She is doing great in school-big addition problems, fractions (adding and subtracting), multiplication facts, division- math comes pretty easy for her. She loves to read books. She loves to learn about new things at school in social studies/history and science, and then come home and tell us facts about the pilgrims, the white house, butterfly life cycles, the systems of the body. She is very goal oriented-passing levels in AR (reading books), getting medals in swim-work hard at something to get something. She is getting so big! Am I ready for the things that are already starting, at an innocent level for now?-boys at school named Austin who really like her and give her things, but are gross because they put ketchup in their milk, and named Devin who she likes and talks about in a funny voice once in awhile. I know Daddy is not ready! We'll just try not to make a big deal about it, but keep a watchful eye and a listening ear.